What I've Learned So Far

So basically what I've learned so far about high school is that it's completely different from last year. People have magically changed over night, nothing is what it seemed to be or seems to be, I can barely trust anyone now (and I find it hard to trust anyone), no one seems to care, and I'm all alone. So I'm keeping my emotional breakdowns inside of me for now and biting my cheek till I find someone who actually cares enough to help. Yet so far all I've gotten is a face full of disappointment and busy friends. I guess no one procrastinates with buddies any more, either. Well, I guess I'm partially to blame for this, too. I mean, I didn't get on Gaia until 9:30 or something tonight, and I'm almost never on anyways. What between my internet being down and then my constant fatigue, I'm probably being blamed as lazy and noncommittal. Feh. I'm starting to not care what people think anymore. But just for the heck of it, I'll keep up my facade for as long as I can. All in all, the good times are over and I'm just being a baby about it. xP

Well, enough emo-ing. I was dead tired today and I plan to get some much-needed sleep now. Yet I still have homework to do in the morning. Evil high school.. Good 3 day weekend. T w T

Stupid testing.

Geh, I hate tests. Especially major tests, like the ones I've been taking since Wednesday. I mean, they're pretty easy, all in all, but that doesn't mean I still don't hate them. There are some up sides to it, though, like if I exceed on any of them (except reading) I can get a modified exam in that class. Modified meaning one or two questions like "1+1=" or "what is the color of the sky?". Cool beans, ne? And then it also gives me reading time. I've gotten to page 130-something in my absurdly large book, and that's not even making a dent in it. =_=

Anyways, remember when I was saying (typing) about that Kanda wig I bought at Party City? Well, stuff happened, and now it looks more like... I don't even know. See, I took it out of the packaging and it was wavy. Carpet. Then I let it sit on my bed for a while (cuz I'm an idiot), it fell off once or twice (cuz I kick things off my bed while I sleep), and now it's very tangly and curly. F-- Anyways, I also need a wig cap for it. Yeah, I was stupid enough not to buy the wig cap Eli gave me. >x> I already said I'm an idiot, ne? Funny thing, I didn't catch a cold this year--

MEHEH. I was supposed to turn in the rough draft for a paper today, but I didn't have it done by the end of class. Thankfully, I'm in middle school and my teachers take late grades. xP I really hope it will be at least similar-- WHAT THE F*CK.

Oh. My. Gosh. This is starting to piss me off and scare me at the same time. On random occassions, my speakers will start playing some random radio station. And I have nothing pulled up that plays music, they're not connected to anything but my computer, and it has been doing this for quite some time. And it just did it again. I have no idea what they were saying. It sounded like a fail singer, if I do say so. But seriously, I wanna know  why it keeps doing that. D:

6:30AM

^I drawed dat. owo^

I am typing this at 6:30. AM. Don't ask. Recently I've been really tired, so I've been going to bed before I can submit an entry to the blog. u_u I'll try to get out of that habbit. I don't really think anything about the whole 'I'm so tired' part; it seems pretty normal for me. xP GAH, I wanna go to the anime store~! Well hey, it's Wednesday. Tomorrow's Thursday, then it's Friday, and before ya know it, it'll be Saturday again. TTwTT I just wish it would come faster...

Yesterday I had to take a 100-question grammar quiz. SUCKED. Actually, I think I did pretty well. Probably failed, but I don't feel like worrying about it. Oh, but I do have to go back to my regular class today, so I won't be able to see my friends on the other team anymore... ;_; Crap you, evil class. CRAP YOU ALL. No, not you. I'm talking to my classes. >_> RAWR.

I've got an orchestra concert today. =A= We're soooo gonna blow it. It's in front of judges, not an audience, too. Well that sucks, and I can almost promise you that we're going to screw up on the tempo, too. We're always rushing or dragging somewhere. Raise your hand if you're not sure what I'm ranting about.

Today I'm making very short paragraphs for this morning entry. I don't usually do morning entrys, either, so that might be why my brain's not working. xP But whatever, as long as I can type, I'll be ok. Now, I was going to say something else, but what was it... I forgot. Whatever. If I remember I'll post it when I get home. CIAO!

Why am I still tired?

Why am I still tired? ...Ok, I take that back. I can think of a few reasons. Like the fact that I had to wake up at 7 this morning because I thought my friend would be picking me up around 8 or 8:30 at most... This is AM, mind you. And as it turned out, she was picking me up at 9. Not 8, 9. =____= I could've slept, DAMMIT!! Eh, I needed fresh air anyways. And at least I had something to do today. I'm always bored on weekends. Unless, that is, I actually get off my butt and call a friend to hook up and do something fun~ Today wasn't exactly my kind of 'fun', but it was ok. OHMIGOSH I KNOW THIS SONG. *is listening to a techno mix* GAH, I loooove that song~ X333 =/////////=

I'm such a spaz. This is what happens to me when I'm tired. Oh crap, I've got church in the morning. I've got to go to bed soon. Oh my gosh. What have they done to this song? o_e Just kidding. I'm just not liking what they did with the voice there at the end... Oh hey, that was a different song. XD Same artist, though.

And I still haven't done either of those pictures. Y'know, I kinda wish blogger would give updates or something when you get a comment on a post. ...Wait, do they do that? o_o;; I certainly don't think I've ever received one... ._.;;; Ohai, 10:00. I should wrap things up. So yeah, I was volunteering today at an art show to run a concession stand. It was more fun than I originally though. ^^ There were a few other girls there that were a few years older than me (high school). And another upside to going is that there were so many little kids~ ADORABLE. There was one little baby there that was sooo cute~!!! X3

...I'm still having a hard time swallowing that next year I'll be in high school... TT_TT I don't waaaaant to leave middle school~ High school will be so confusing and hard and I'll get lost so much~!!! D'x But then again, I don't want to get held back, either. >w>;;;

Tired.

Yeah, I'm tired. I'm not sure why, either... Daylight Savings is Sunday, so why am I tired now? Why not then? Then I'd have an excuse... And I wish my little sister would stop screaming. =_=;;; *changes song on iPod* Honestly, why did I put this song on here anyways? >_>;;;;;; Ok, so I do like the chorus. BTW, it's Remedy by Little Boots, in case you were wondering. d(^-^)b

Yeah, I abuse emoticons. Oh, and I have another drawing request from the same friend... I still haven't gotten around to drawing my younger sister's picture, either. And I'm drawing one for fun... And I want to practice some costumes, so I saved a few pictures. In fact, I think I'll use one of them for the picture for this post. OH, and I just randomly decided that if anyone's reading this and wants to see a picture of mine, just comment and ask me and I'll do it! ...I should write another entry for that, though.

I'm still tired.

Some of my friends are letting each other read their diarys/journals. I would let them read mine, but it's long, rambling, and messy. XD I doubt anyone (but me) could read my handwritting sometimes... Oh, and I went back and editted some stuff in red marker. XDDD Just because I was reading some of the stuff I wrote and it was incredibly idiotic. *sigh* Honestly... u///u