Today in health class we were reading about drugs and the like, and as I was skimming over the 'over-the-counter drugs' section, half asleep, and I started thinking.. Not good thoughts. I considered going home and purposefully overdosing. I don't even know why, really. I've been getting depressed pretty easily recently. It seems like the end of the world or something, like I don't have a tomorrow to live for. Usually I'd tell anyone telling me this to go to a psychiatrist or counselor, but I hate them. I don't want to go to one. :|
Anyways, I've been battling it out with myself, convincing myself not to do anything stupid and that this is just a phase that'll pass, like the time when I wanted to drown myself. That got over with pretty quickly. Like, a minute at most. But that was also pretty violent, with the tossing and the turning and the crying of the eyes... Yeah. I went through some pretty dark times while I was gone from blogger. Maybe that'll be a story to tell later. But for now, I'm fighting a lethargic battle against depression and suicide.
Kinda glad my friends don't go on blogger anymore. But just in case, I might be creating a new blogger account sometime.
